Please make me well ;D

These few days , I opened my book but I just can't concentrate on my studies D:
That's bad
I have nothing to do , leading my life meaningless-ly
I wish I can go out shopping ;D
Maybe somewhere far ? Lolol ;D
Nah , I have sorted our my thinkings , I have been too lazy , useless ...
I should change my habits to going outings yeah .
Kay, nothing much happened today except for slacking
If I were to go out, it will be much better.
Kay, good-bye !
[Edited at 12:57pm]
I sobbed just now , all because of your words, your words are too hurtful to me,
but it's better that you just say everything about what you think of me, HATE ME
I'm the only one that you hate ever since you have so many friends .
I've cooled down,
I can't take this anymore !!!!!!!!!!
I know you will always thiNk i'm in the wrong ; I didn't say i'm not in the wrong.
Anyway IT's OVER !
I won't take your dad's vehicle anymore .. Happy ?
so you're right ? in your msn, put there what you know.
Hurtful remarks to me.
In any case, thanks for your reminder.
I know you're trying to tell me to change.
I will change.
I hope we will clear this misunderstanding ..
I really don't know ..