The feeling of this.. is unbearable.. but it's tolerable..
I don't know what i am talking.. but i don't want to point out what is it..
I hate the feeling ! !~ ~~!!!
Feeling so upset. why did they ? ..
Best friends ?.. I can't believe it.. that they are my best friends..
Sometimes, i felt hurt but i don't show it on my face.
I kept it in my heart. I don't understand ..
even though, going shopping with friends..... happy but.. the feeling of them to me seems like.. it's still the same without them.. it can be said that i am talking to wall.
Family is still the best.
Friends can hurt each other feelings.
They kept talking to each other.. but how about me? Am i transparent? ..
I don't know!!!!!!
Sometimes, i tried to keep the pace of talking..
even if i am quiet , they can still talk alot of things to me ? so i can talk more.
Don't they even understand?
even if i am in a bad mood, i don't show my temper to my best friends.
But when bad mood enough, continuing to say a word "OI , lar " hurts me.
I don't mention who they are.. because i just want to bottle out my feelings in this blog. if i mention their names, it will meant trouble to them and me..
AFter you've read this speechless blog, asking me questions about who they are.. are secret..
Can't I just vent my sadness here?
I can still withstand longer..
Any longer more.. I hope i'll be able to withstand ..
I wish " THEY could treat me like a best friend, not a normal friend nor a good friend " I would be happy to know that.....
-EMO-ed
Saturday, March 28, 2009
Friday, March 20, 2009
Stress ........ ! [AAAHHHHH]
When we think of what affects our emotional well-being, the first concept that probably comes to mind is stress. Stress is a very complex subject. The word itself is one of the most misused in the English language, both in every day life and the medical field. It’s correctly used as a noun, a verb, and an adjective. But of all of its uses, its accepted definition in society is also its most inaccurate.
The word ‘stress’ has come to carry a solely negative connotation, yet it is important to realize that stress is an intrinsic component of good health. Stress is actually the stimulus that enables growth and development to occur. Consider this: inhalation, the act of expanding the lungs, is a stressor. This act of stress upon the lungs is then balanced by the recovery of exhalation. Now, if you breathe in and hold that breath, your body soon screams for its natural balance to be restored. It is not stress itself that is the culprit. It’s the lack of recovery from the stressors bombarding us which create havoc in our emotional and physical well-being. But through your ability to use and manipulate your emotions, you can take control of your physical and mental well-being.
Stress does create physiological changes, many of which are actually triggered by emotional reactions to the stressor. Stress is something to actively seek out, because as long as it’s balanced by an equal amount of recovery, your body and emotions are trained to withstand the stress without experiencing injury.
This probably sounds contradictory to what we’ve come to believe, since we are constantly told that stress should be avoided at all costs or at least reduced as much as is humanly possible. But this is absolutely wrong. Just think of what happens to a broken leg - it’s encased in a cast to protect it from all stress. Yes, this allows the bone to heal, but what happens to the immobilized muscles during that healing process? Exposed to no movement - no stress - they lose resiliency and, after the cast is removed, require progressive retraining through physical therapy before they can withstand even normal use. If you were to eliminate all stress from your existence, you would soon lose all emotional states - there would be no joy, no anguish, no exuberance, no grief. Technically, if all stress were eliminated, you would not even inhale and exhale. What would you be? Dead.
What we must realize is that it is not stress itself which causes our problems - it is the inappropriate responses to the stressors which ultimately lead to harm. By training ourselves to recognize imbalance between stress and recovery, we grasp the ability to recognize the imbalance created in our emotional and physical states. And through the use of emotion, we literally can alter our body’s physical response to the stressors we encounter.
While everybody manifests a stress response, it may vary from one individual to another. When confronted with a major stressor, some people may experience a rapid increase in heart rate. In others, the stomach feels as though it is twisted in knots, with a major impact on the gastrointestinal system. Yet others might experience tension headaches, caused by muscle tension. Although all of these symptoms have an actual tendency to occur, different individuals may have a predominance of one type of symptom or another. And it is noteworthy that the form of response will manifest in other types of situations as well.
There are different forms of stress - in particular, acute versus chronic. Acute stress is what happens within you when you’re suddenly cut off on the highway by a huge truck or when you climb aboard a roller-coaster for the first time. Your mental resources and physical body are actually very adept at dealing with this short-lived type of stress. What the mind and body are not equipped to handle is chronic stress. That’s because the response to stressors results in a switch from unessential building processes to the process of breaking things down.
Chemicals are produced within your body during the stress period as a response which enables the conversion of energy into a useable form. One of the chemicals involved in this process is cortisol, and one of its main missions is to fuel the ‘fight or flight’ response. This provides you with the energy needed to get yourself out of a mess. But if the stress is chronic - if you cannot remove yourself from the stressful situation - the continual release of cortisol begins to take a severe toll on the immune, cardiovascular and gastrointestinal systems.
Mental health may also suffer and, because it takes energy to mobilize resources within your body during the stress response period, lethargy may set in when those sources of energy become depleted.
The word ‘stress’ has come to carry a solely negative connotation, yet it is important to realize that stress is an intrinsic component of good health. Stress is actually the stimulus that enables growth and development to occur. Consider this: inhalation, the act of expanding the lungs, is a stressor. This act of stress upon the lungs is then balanced by the recovery of exhalation. Now, if you breathe in and hold that breath, your body soon screams for its natural balance to be restored. It is not stress itself that is the culprit. It’s the lack of recovery from the stressors bombarding us which create havoc in our emotional and physical well-being. But through your ability to use and manipulate your emotions, you can take control of your physical and mental well-being.
Stress does create physiological changes, many of which are actually triggered by emotional reactions to the stressor. Stress is something to actively seek out, because as long as it’s balanced by an equal amount of recovery, your body and emotions are trained to withstand the stress without experiencing injury.
This probably sounds contradictory to what we’ve come to believe, since we are constantly told that stress should be avoided at all costs or at least reduced as much as is humanly possible. But this is absolutely wrong. Just think of what happens to a broken leg - it’s encased in a cast to protect it from all stress. Yes, this allows the bone to heal, but what happens to the immobilized muscles during that healing process? Exposed to no movement - no stress - they lose resiliency and, after the cast is removed, require progressive retraining through physical therapy before they can withstand even normal use. If you were to eliminate all stress from your existence, you would soon lose all emotional states - there would be no joy, no anguish, no exuberance, no grief. Technically, if all stress were eliminated, you would not even inhale and exhale. What would you be? Dead.
What we must realize is that it is not stress itself which causes our problems - it is the inappropriate responses to the stressors which ultimately lead to harm. By training ourselves to recognize imbalance between stress and recovery, we grasp the ability to recognize the imbalance created in our emotional and physical states. And through the use of emotion, we literally can alter our body’s physical response to the stressors we encounter.
While everybody manifests a stress response, it may vary from one individual to another. When confronted with a major stressor, some people may experience a rapid increase in heart rate. In others, the stomach feels as though it is twisted in knots, with a major impact on the gastrointestinal system. Yet others might experience tension headaches, caused by muscle tension. Although all of these symptoms have an actual tendency to occur, different individuals may have a predominance of one type of symptom or another. And it is noteworthy that the form of response will manifest in other types of situations as well.
There are different forms of stress - in particular, acute versus chronic. Acute stress is what happens within you when you’re suddenly cut off on the highway by a huge truck or when you climb aboard a roller-coaster for the first time. Your mental resources and physical body are actually very adept at dealing with this short-lived type of stress. What the mind and body are not equipped to handle is chronic stress. That’s because the response to stressors results in a switch from unessential building processes to the process of breaking things down.
Chemicals are produced within your body during the stress period as a response which enables the conversion of energy into a useable form. One of the chemicals involved in this process is cortisol, and one of its main missions is to fuel the ‘fight or flight’ response. This provides you with the energy needed to get yourself out of a mess. But if the stress is chronic - if you cannot remove yourself from the stressful situation - the continual release of cortisol begins to take a severe toll on the immune, cardiovascular and gastrointestinal systems.
Mental health may also suffer and, because it takes energy to mobilize resources within your body during the stress response period, lethargy may set in when those sources of energy become depleted.
Saturday, March 14, 2009
Trip..
i went to farmart.. LOL.
In the first place, i was enjoying, but
the sun rises, so i can't enjoy.
It was scorching on my head. so hot.
-.-
afterwards, i went to lim chu kang.
GOAT farm..
i saw many cyclists.
I thought they must have been in a marathon.
It's so cool and interesting,
i love cycling, my favourite hobby.
In the meantime, i watched them cycle, how i envy them.
When we reached my uncle's house, i became dizzy .
Feel like fainting .
you should know the reason.
After all, i did enjoy feeding the goat .
we went back, my two cousins and my sister ate mee hoon.
I had eaten at farmart.
whoa, they made a huge mess at the balcony
Furthermore, it rained.
my uncle was sleeping.
After raining, it was 4pm plus.
they went to the swimming pool to swim.
I brought them down the condo . But i didn't swim because i am sick.
Hahas.
My brother did swam for a while.
He felt cold.
So he took a bath.
when my uncle woke up from his dreamland, he saw the whole mess at the balcony.
He was like "angry plus shocked"
I felt a little scared because i am the eldest.
Eldest always take responsible for the younger siblings' doings.
So i quickly packed up.
afterwards, i used the computer.
My uncle went to buy dinner for the 5 of us.
I went to buy HL milk and HL strawberry milk for everybody.
After all, it was ...
In the first place, i was enjoying, but
the sun rises, so i can't enjoy.
It was scorching on my head. so hot.
-.-
afterwards, i went to lim chu kang.
GOAT farm..
i saw many cyclists.
I thought they must have been in a marathon.
It's so cool and interesting,
i love cycling, my favourite hobby.
In the meantime, i watched them cycle, how i envy them.
When we reached my uncle's house, i became dizzy .
Feel like fainting .
you should know the reason.
After all, i did enjoy feeding the goat .
we went back, my two cousins and my sister ate mee hoon.
I had eaten at farmart.
whoa, they made a huge mess at the balcony
Furthermore, it rained.
my uncle was sleeping.
After raining, it was 4pm plus.
they went to the swimming pool to swim.
I brought them down the condo . But i didn't swim because i am sick.
Hahas.
My brother did swam for a while.
He felt cold.
So he took a bath.
when my uncle woke up from his dreamland, he saw the whole mess at the balcony.
He was like "angry plus shocked"
I felt a little scared because i am the eldest.
Eldest always take responsible for the younger siblings' doings.
So i quickly packed up.
afterwards, i used the computer.
My uncle went to buy dinner for the 5 of us.
I went to buy HL milk and HL strawberry milk for everybody.
After all, it was ...
Spending my weekend/holidays
It seems that, i spent my holiday not doing homework and no revision. That's sad.
Because of freedom, i did this kind of thing. Isn't it bad of me?
But of course!
Today i watched my bro play maplesea.
Whenever he is living together with my family, he usually uses the com.
Afterwards, we went to send our cousin to her piano class.
We drank milo dinosaur.
It's very nice to drink. Serious nice!
I feel like drinking it again.
Afterwards, he fetch my cousin back from her piano class at fajar shopping centre.
We went home together..
waiting for our uncle to bring our another cousin to our grandma's house.
so that we can stay overnight at our uncle's house.
I have eaten egg with bread .. eaten many..
hahahs..
LOL.
my uncle reached .. he brought us to his house.
Once i reached there, my bro and i open his fridge and drank the ribena , chocolate HL milk and HL milk finished. Luckily, there is still ribena left.
I watched television ..
I bathed FOR my two cousins and my sister..
then i went for dinner..
During dinnertime, my brothers ..(crazy) can't finish their food.. ><"
I finished it..
Then now i am blogging!
Bye~
I am going to take a shower soon.. See ya..
Because of freedom, i did this kind of thing. Isn't it bad of me?
But of course!
Today i watched my bro play maplesea.
Whenever he is living together with my family, he usually uses the com.
Afterwards, we went to send our cousin to her piano class.
We drank milo dinosaur.
It's very nice to drink. Serious nice!
I feel like drinking it again.
Afterwards, he fetch my cousin back from her piano class at fajar shopping centre.
We went home together..
waiting for our uncle to bring our another cousin to our grandma's house.
so that we can stay overnight at our uncle's house.
I have eaten egg with bread .. eaten many..
hahahs..
LOL.
my uncle reached .. he brought us to his house.
Once i reached there, my bro and i open his fridge and drank the ribena , chocolate HL milk and HL milk finished. Luckily, there is still ribena left.
I watched television ..
I bathed FOR my two cousins and my sister..
then i went for dinner..
During dinnertime, my brothers ..(crazy) can't finish their food.. ><"
I finished it..
Then now i am blogging!
Bye~
I am going to take a shower soon.. See ya..
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
It's about today (workshop)
As usual, i woke up .. same thing.. i went to zirong's house downstairs.
Then we reached school
At the beginning, it was quite interesting cause i won the hand-exercise (3E3-3E4)
So I was happy.
The prize was a sweet.
-.-
LOL
LAME right?
Hahahs
after recess, it is now about managing our time and studies, i can tell you,
my eyelid is very heavy.
cause i wanna sleep.
After school, nasrin, amalina, natnicha , laura and i went to plaza.
Oops! We had forgotten about Zirong~
Sorry~
Their purpose there was to eat and go to library ..
while mine was to go to library~
LOLs!
After that.. i walked with amalina to the bukit panjang lrt..
we chatted about what food .. tomorrow for CIP .
Hahhs,
I went to fajar shopping centre buy tidbits.
I went back to my grandma's house at the end.
~
Then we reached school
At the beginning, it was quite interesting cause i won the hand-exercise (3E3-3E4)
So I was happy.
The prize was a sweet.
-.-
LOL
LAME right?
Hahahs
after recess, it is now about managing our time and studies, i can tell you,
my eyelid is very heavy.
cause i wanna sleep.
After school, nasrin, amalina, natnicha , laura and i went to plaza.
Oops! We had forgotten about Zirong~
Sorry~
Their purpose there was to eat and go to library ..
while mine was to go to library~
LOLs!
After that.. i walked with amalina to the bukit panjang lrt..
we chatted about what food .. tomorrow for CIP .
Hahhs,
I went to fajar shopping centre buy tidbits.
I went back to my grandma's house at the end.
~
Saturday, March 7, 2009
Happy weekend~
Hello PEOPLE,
I am going to tell you about today~
Let me intro myself
Cousins; Chantel and Cedrike
Sister: Eurika
Brothers; Xavier and Neville
it's siblings
It was early in the morning, i woke up cause i was preparing my swimming costumes , clothes, smth.. food.. Hahahs
Until.. i received 1 miss call from Nasrin. Actually we had plans about going to Chua Chu Kang Swimming Complex to swim.
However, the sms says that change of plans.. not going to swimming today.
So i "ZZZ"
That's okay.
I don't mean that in a bad way .
I just wanna share about my daily life.
Afterwards, i went to my grandma's house with my mum.
We walked to the cck LRT together. But of course , i took the LRT by myself to my ah ma's house.
When i reached there, I watched my bro playing MAPLESEA. LOL
Wah, it can be quite boring when watching him play cause i have nothing to do..
Then, I called my uncle to ask if he can take my brothers and sister+cousin to swimming pool at his condo.
He said okay.
I was happy.
So my swimming costume was at my mummy's house. ~ALAMAK~!
We waited for my mum to finish her work first before bringing our swimming costumes to our grandma's house.
By the time she finished her work, it was already 5pm.
So, it was raining at that time.
But she reached my uncle's house at 5.30pm+ .
Rain had stopped.
We went to change into our costumes and jump down the pool right away~!
Hahahs
*Dinner Time*
We went to eat our dinner at my uncle's house.
Hahahs.
Now, I haven't sleep because that i am blogging.
I am at my uncle's house.
My brothers, sister+cousin had slept.
My uncle sent my mum and cousin home.
Hmm.. hahahs.. i still using computer.
OK.
I gotta sleep soon .
Good night ~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
I am going to tell you about today~
Let me intro myself
Cousins; Chantel and Cedrike
Sister: Eurika
Brothers; Xavier and Neville
it's siblings
It was early in the morning, i woke up cause i was preparing my swimming costumes , clothes, smth.. food.. Hahahs
Until.. i received 1 miss call from Nasrin. Actually we had plans about going to Chua Chu Kang Swimming Complex to swim.
However, the sms says that change of plans.. not going to swimming today.
So i "ZZZ"
That's okay.
I don't mean that in a bad way .
I just wanna share about my daily life.
Afterwards, i went to my grandma's house with my mum.
We walked to the cck LRT together. But of course , i took the LRT by myself to my ah ma's house.
When i reached there, I watched my bro playing MAPLESEA. LOL
Wah, it can be quite boring when watching him play cause i have nothing to do..
Then, I called my uncle to ask if he can take my brothers and sister+cousin to swimming pool at his condo.
He said okay.
I was happy.
So my swimming costume was at my mummy's house. ~ALAMAK~!
We waited for my mum to finish her work first before bringing our swimming costumes to our grandma's house.
By the time she finished her work, it was already 5pm.
So, it was raining at that time.
But she reached my uncle's house at 5.30pm+ .
Rain had stopped.
We went to change into our costumes and jump down the pool right away~!
Hahahs
*Dinner Time*
We went to eat our dinner at my uncle's house.
Hahahs.
Now, I haven't sleep because that i am blogging.
I am at my uncle's house.
My brothers, sister+cousin had slept.
My uncle sent my mum and cousin home.
Hmm.. hahahs.. i still using computer.
OK.
I gotta sleep soon .
Good night ~
~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Thursday, March 5, 2009
Today lohhs.
Hehes..
school started as usual, i went into the class for lessons.. then recess.. then lesson...
schooldays not much to say =x.. LOL
today , i never bring APPLE to school.. No.. i got tempted and during recess time , i went to buy 1 stick nugget.. and then.. people ask me donate.. i don't have change.. so they were like never mind.. sorry PeOple.. But i did donate to Amalina(:
It was lunch time . I ate Mee Hoon during Lunch .
Greedy of me? .. =x
LOL.
During A/C/T, i went for 5 mins break, but we took 10 mins to come back. wah .
The bell rings, our A/C/T had ended.
Which means it was after school, Laura, Amalina and I went to bukit panjang plaza .
They went there to buy present while i went there to eat ice cream.
Well, it's kind of me to accompany them to plaza, am i right?
JOKEJOKE ><
Bye Guys! I have to go to fajar to fetch my cousin back from her so-called school.
Must miss me ! JK!
school started as usual, i went into the class for lessons.. then recess.. then lesson...
schooldays not much to say =x.. LOL
today , i never bring APPLE to school.. No.. i got tempted and during recess time , i went to buy 1 stick nugget.. and then.. people ask me donate.. i don't have change.. so they were like never mind.. sorry PeOple.. But i did donate to Amalina(:
It was lunch time . I ate Mee Hoon during Lunch .
Greedy of me? .. =x
LOL.
During A/C/T, i went for 5 mins break, but we took 10 mins to come back. wah .
The bell rings, our A/C/T had ended.
Which means it was after school, Laura, Amalina and I went to bukit panjang plaza .
They went there to buy present while i went there to eat ice cream.
Well, it's kind of me to accompany them to plaza, am i right?
JOKEJOKE ><
Bye Guys! I have to go to fajar to fetch my cousin back from her so-called school.
Must miss me ! JK!
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
About today..
ABOUT today ar..
aiyahh.. today as usual go sch.. having lesson.. recess.. i also dunno .. i eat smth..
lols.. followed by physics lab then mother tongue.. wah.. alot of homework today..
then lunch .. lunch horhhs.. we sit separate table.. dont know why..
then horhhs.. i come back le straight on computer use msn.. LOL
not even something special right?
i know my history fail .. so sad.. but never mind ..
i will study hard towards the exam..
i rmb 4 days ago.. i went to east coast park with my best friends : zirong, laura, natnicha
it was an enjoyable day for me (:
hahahs
anyway.. you guys know what am i going to say..
to be continued by you guys...
Buhbyes =D
aiyahh.. today as usual go sch.. having lesson.. recess.. i also dunno .. i eat smth..
lols.. followed by physics lab then mother tongue.. wah.. alot of homework today..
then lunch .. lunch horhhs.. we sit separate table.. dont know why..
then horhhs.. i come back le straight on computer use msn.. LOL
not even something special right?
i know my history fail .. so sad.. but never mind ..
i will study hard towards the exam..
i rmb 4 days ago.. i went to east coast park with my best friends : zirong, laura, natnicha
it was an enjoyable day for me (:
hahahs
anyway.. you guys know what am i going to say..
to be continued by you guys...
Buhbyes =D
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