(Speechless)

The feeling of this.. is unbearable.. but it's tolerable..
I don't know what i am talking.. but i don't want to point out what is it..
I hate the feeling ! !~ ~~!!!
Feeling so upset. why did they ? ..
Best friends ?.. I can't believe it.. that they are my best friends..
Sometimes, i felt hurt but i don't show it on my face.
I kept it in my heart. I don't understand ..
even though, going shopping with friends..... happy but.. the feeling of them to me seems like.. it's still the same without them.. it can be said that i am talking to wall.
Family is still the best.
Friends can hurt each other feelings.
They kept talking to each other.. but how about me? Am i transparent? ..
I don't know!!!!!!
Sometimes, i tried to keep the pace of talking..
even if i am quiet , they can still talk alot of things to me ? so i can talk more.
Don't they even understand?
even if i am in a bad mood, i don't show my temper to my best friends.
But when bad mood enough, continuing to say a word "OI , lar " hurts me.
I don't mention who they are.. because i just want to bottle out my feelings in this blog. if i mention their names, it will meant trouble to them and me..
AFter you've read this speechless blog, asking me questions about who they are.. are secret..
Can't I just vent my sadness here?
I can still withstand longer..
Any longer more.. I hope i'll be able to withstand ..
I wish " THEY could treat me like a best friend, not a normal friend nor a good friend " I would be happy to know that.....
-EMO-ed